"May-be?"

... because to answer a 'life', it ain't easy.

Sometimes we have so many questions. But no answers.

Sometimes we have so many "maybes". But we never know for sure.

Maybe we dont need the answers.
Maybe we need to ask ourselves more questions.

How can i be selfish when so much had given me?
How can i hate when i have been shown so much love?

How can i wish i would never get hurt again - if it will mean never loving or being loved again?

How can i stay angry, since i am being gifted...
the waves washing up the shore...
the stars hanging on the sky..
the sky being painted Purple Every SINGLE DAY...
and all of these, actually took my breath away?


Those are the questions i asked myself
- the ones that make me realize
Maybe the answers are not found in the 'answers',
But in the Journey we travel to search for 'them'.

One last 'Maybe',
Maybe we were made not just to travel over land, but to travel within our souls.

Maybe...

It's only real, when it's shared.

~*EARN*~

"Logic."

"Logic."

... because everyone knows 1 + 1 = 2.

Something i was reading in the library....

"I know what you're thinking about," said Tweedledum; "but if it isn't so, nohow."

"Contrariwise," continued Tweedledee,

"If it was so, it might be;
If it were so, it would be;
If it isn't, it ain't.
That's logic. "

Abnormal is normal.

~*EARN*~

9/11/2009 haiz....

9/11/2009
me and my college frenz falling out....
bcuz of the assignment^^
I'm just hope u can say sorry to me...
I know you want to protect your self as well but you destroy my personality!!!
I'm angry you bcuz you not telling the truth to ppl and lecture...
I help u finish the assignment but you tell ppl u make it by your self....
Then in the end I become a COPYCAT!!!!
Becuz OF YOU I fail in this important EXAM MARKS!!!!

i hate it.
i hate it,

I have worked so hard for my study,
But becuz of your lie words make it become the other way.
ppl may not know how much effort i have done to make things work,
but i know it, you know it, we both know it.

to you and the others,
i may seem to be a good and kind one,
the one who ppl will always choose to sacrifice,
because i am too patient,
and i dun request much.
am i really that stupid and silly?
for behaving this patient?

i am just smart enough to pretend to be ignorant,
to be ignorant about the things that
i think i should and i am supposed to know,
but i dun want to know,
because they will in turn ruin the situations.
i am just being ignorant for us.

After i type this article i felt NOT BAD nw....
In this time,
I'm just hope you can say sorry to me....





**overwhelmed with disappointment.*
**speechless.**

Dealing with......

2nd times type in English....actually oready use a few days to type it cuz i translete from my chinese typing....Hope will learn english too....If gt where i type wrong ,plz tell me lor....Thanks....
Nw i will talk about Dealing.....Dealing with wat???

The Past....
because it is something, which makes us who we are,
today.

and

The Present....
because it is an on-going life experience, which shapes
our future, not long from now.

andnow i am stuck between the cross roads of,
The Past and The Present.
**i don't even know, where am i going.**

The cryptic cerebration from the Past,
andThe skeptical actuality of the Present.

I've seen them, and most of them aren't frenly,
though.Trust Me.

Well, i guess i just need to find a direction,
a direction for myself, to stay alert.

It takes time, experiences, lotsa falls in life and perhaps,
some of the bleedings, in order to identfy the spurious and
the genuine.

But at the end of the day,
the immunity that you gain through the precipitous slope,
will allow you to contemplate maturely, to act rationally
and to see explicitly.

I am dealing now, though i don't really know am i
compromising well with my immunity, but hopefully,
i am
not doing too bad.



~*Earn*~

"Drama"

Long time dint update my blog ady~~actually gt type but dint post it cuz so lazy to post it!!Now want to change type english.....1st time type in english,hope my english will not so poor~~
Suddenly wanna talk about drama....

"Drama. .....
because that is what life is all about."

most of us, are Drama ADDICTS.

either we are the director, the producer, the hero and heroin, or we are the audience.

no matter what's our role, the Drama will still be played.


But...
underneath the facade, sometimes things just aren't the way they appear to be.

People are drowning.
Lures. Desires. Tempations.

Cross-linkage between the truth and the lie, never ends.

the Drama never crucify the truth,
but because the truth hurts, so we lie.

How do you deal..?
**silence**
sometimes you feel like you just cant deal.

But....
the Show is still ON.

And,
You Go On.

because you put one foot in front of the others,
and you hold your head up high.
because in the dark,
there's always truth, if you choose to see the light.

to experience your life, just like how you indulge yourself in the Drama, but never ever, give excuses, to blindfold you vey own self, from seeing the lights, the beacon.

learn to accept and to adapt,
because that's the only way, you can get on with your life, your Drama.

Put your faith in what you most believe in.


*~Meng Earn*~

决定性的走出自己

哇！！真的好久没有写部落格了。
一直都没有时间也比较懒惰写咯。
咳～最近发生了很多很多的事情...

其实以为自己已经解决了自己的问题，
原来都不是，原来都是自己在逃避，
逃避自己的身世，
逃避真正的自己，
原来我真的还是很在意自己的一切，
我还是那么的恨我自己～

一直都不喜欢让别人看到我自己，
所以一直都在掩饰自己，
设法让别人能够记得我，
设法让别人能够看到我，
所以常常都会在别人面前扮这个演那个，
很像小丑这样去取悦大众也在大众面前出丑出丑，
但是有时这样的举止行为就会让别人很讨厌，
最近就是真的有人讨厌而且还在背后一直射我剑～
原来这样也会被人讨厌～
我真的没什么去在意的因为没有价值的人被讨厌是没有关系的（这是我个人想法）

我以为自己能够就这样的演一天就过一天，
就整个人生都是在演戏咯,,,,
反正我已经演到麻木了，
就在以为没有人了解我的情况下，
竟然会有个人伟颖姐姐她能够了解我～
就在有一天，她把我的感受我的想法都讲出来了，
原来真的有人在观察我有人在关心我，
一直以来以为只有上帝耶稣是爱我的，
可是我没有想过伟颖姐姐是那么的厉害～
上帝派了一个天使把我的人生给刺激刺激了，
因为她说的那番话都把我一一的刺中了，
所以我重新给自己一个机会找回自己～

虽然我还是不能够接受我自己，
但是我会努力摆脱过去的阴影，
因为伟颖姐姐说如果我还不放下的话，
那我的生命就会倒退走，
我已经停留太久了也开始倒退，
所以我必须放下过去我抓紧的东西～
我知道靠着我自己是不能的，
所以需要寻求上帝赐给我的力量，
赐我有这个能力能够做得到～

我相信，
靠着祂我凡事都能做～

我的痛～

无星的天空，让夜晚静上了好几份，让四周幽静了好几份，
而我的心，也寂寞了好几份。。。
我是个很容易寂寞的人，真的。
可以，因为小事而满足，开心；
也可以因小事而悲伤，寂寞。
一直以来，我改不掉的缺点，就是不能没有朋友。
对，绝不能。。
对不起，我是很容易受伤的，是脆弱的。。
笑容，是绝对的保护色。
我不喜欢表达伤心，
不喜欢表达不开心，不喜欢别人问我伤心事，
也不懂如何表达不开心。
笑，还是容易多了。
还是说，我太会用笑来掩饰一切？
看起来，我就是个完全不会伤心的人？
完全开朗的人？
所以我伤心时都是一个人,需要人陪时也是一个人！
为何最近，都很寂寞。。
一个人的伤心，是寂寞的，是孤独的，是痛苦的。。
一个人的夜晚，是无情的，是孤单的，是无法忍受的。。
为何，我可以，突然寂寞到不知何为寂寞的地步？
为何，我可以，无法忍受不知为何忍受的这个夜晚？
为何，想念一个人，可以到这种地步？
为何，打着部落各的我，还是感觉十分落魄？
原来。。想念，可以是如此寂寞的。。
想念，可以是如此痛苦的。是种，永无止境的失魂感。。
拥上心头。不。。。不。。。真的，不行，好累。。
我已没力气，再让自己，逃避下去。。不想这些问题。。
可以吗？不要去想而快点离开我的脑海了的复杂事情。。
可以吗？